haLLuciNAtioN aXiS

.. I have a lot of work to do today; I need to slaughter memory, turn my living soul to stone, then teach myself to live again...

Anna Akhmatova, The Verdict

I am tired oh so fucking tired of fielding the axis of hallucination, meets the opposite of truthing, bejeezus sifting thru, attempting to decipher whyte supremacist narratives, ‘sad girl summer,’ ‘hot girl summer,’ the parallel track — kill, kill, kill —dismantle, abort disengage BELIEF because that means magiX: If magiX for ALL was allowed, then none of the eregores could take hold, the old ways. Board up the windows. Refuse to listen to the dark (whyte) magiX. Do it. Do it now. But that’s ‘nonsense,’ & ‘superstition’. A systematic destruction has taken place. It is not a ‘side effect’. Imperialism is anti magiX for the proletariat. 

Or ‘Living my best life,’ another whyte supremacist narrative. Another narrative of the bourgeoisie IDGAF about your ‘best lyfe,’ narrative— Or your ‘self care,’ ‘mental health,’ narrative. None of this is real. None of this is real. None of this is real. Some of this is real. Pain. 

Talk of it in all your features. Your dead ones. I can’t do it anymore. Participate. Sift, sift through bourgeois narratives. This allure of infecting communities. You gonna need to get off the ride, honey, step off. Get right off it! I don’t wanna C your best lyfe. That’s disgusting. Either we all live it or no-one else does. Not you. Definitely not you. I don’t even get what we fyte for no more, if all we wanna do is step right in, step in2 every bourgeois spectacle & create our own bourgeois tiny spectacle. Tiny spectacle. Tiny spectacles of the bourgeosie. 

by Sascha Aurora Akhtar

Sascha Aurora A is the known name of an occulted, fractious element bent on subverting dominant paradigms. Works online: The Fortnightly Review, Lucy Writers Cambridge, Shuddasar, Queen Mobs Tea House and Mercurius Absurd-Surreal Sampler. Books: The Grimoire of Grimalkin (Prototype), The Whimsy of Dank Ju-Ju (Emma Press), Astra Inclinant (Contraband), #LoveLikeBlood (KFS Press), Only Dying Sparkles (ZimZalla) and 199 Japanese Names for Japanese Trees (Shearsman)

Image courtesy of Karina Bush